At the moment I have to confess I really don’t feel like talking. I feel like running; not talking. Can’t run and feel low and not inclined to chat. Since my last entry I had a physio visit and came away with more exercises to do and instructions to not run until Wednesday (tomorrow).
I spent the weekend trying to distract myself from “no running” by going on 4 blind dates with men from a dating website. I know my life is so busy, and part of that is probably to distract me from the fact that I am generally lonely, but I decided to give a renewed effort to finding love. After 4 dates and by the end of the weekend, I was exhausted, un-run, and thinking “What the hell are you doing, you’ve more important stuff to focus on?!” So instead of the weekend lifting my spirits, it’s really done the opposite. After one week of “dates” I’m over internet dating, again! I really wonder what I have to do to meet someone nice.
Saturday night I went along to the recon run I was supposed to be doing and just helped out and met some new people. This was a 41km qualifying run for the Kep Ultra that I had entered for June 5th. As I didn’t have a sub 4:30 marathon time in the last 3 years (and others wanting to do the race) I had to do this run (trail, in 5 hours or less) in order to show I was capable of doing the 100km on June 5. So I didn’t do it, and I won’t do the Kep. I thought being there would be ok, but it really just frustrated me even more, especially knowing I could do the 41km in around 4:30.
Anyway, this last week has not been very active. I’ve used the gym every other day in an attempt to do something; but I’m not doing legs. I am doing the exercises the physio gave me; all except for this standing yoga ball one where I just can’t get the balance right. She said it is in place of doing one-legged squats…so I am doing one-legged squats instead. FD#1 is happy, she is getting walked more; even at the beach for 90 minutes on Sunday.
I am to go on a “test” run tomorrow, 5kms, if that doesn’t hurt then I can run another 5km on Thursday. Then I have a physio appointment on Friday morning. This whole thing has put me back about 3-4 weeks on total mileage…and I am reaching the point where I am starting to doubt I will get the distance under my legs that I need. The airfare is paid, the entry is paid…I guess I don’t need to opt out until the week before. That gives me just over 11 weeks to pull off a something special. My brain isn’t up for it this week…hopefully back on task shortly with better news about my right knee.
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